Tuesday, June 11, 2013

F

You know how I know why I like this guy? There weren't some neon lights flickering incessantly telling me yes, you like him. It was slow and gradual. Everyday, I feel like I'm being drawn in by some force too strong to resist, that if I looked the other way I'm sure I'd lose my head. No, really. And every single moment I bask in the feeling, I tell myself it's fleeting. All these are temporal and changes are bound to happen in time. Yet, I still get stuck. With this feeling, with this guy. Crazy!
He would irked me many times for countless reasons, most of which are shallow and unimportant. I try not to give him my time of the day, but boy do I have to be reminded of the "force". And in so saying, I also happen to like our senseless conversations of just about anything under the sun. ;)
There are days that I look forward to seeing him. There was one particular moment that struck me, so much that I put him high on a pedestal. I had a long tiring day and since everyone was busy, I decided to try my luck and sent him a text saying he has to actually say yes to my dinner invitation (never mind that he was also tired and had to prepare for an upcoming exam). And yes, your guess may have been right.
I'd like to see myself giving it a try. Maybe it's worth it, maybe it's not. No one can really tell. So here's to pressing chances and wishing hard they go my way. :)

"Shouldn't we hold out for the person who doesn't just tolerate our little quirks, but actually likes them?"

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Baby, it's Hugh :>

Here I am typing to the tune of Sean Kingston's Rum and Raybans. Yes, I know, it's not exactly the type of music I would be caught dead listening to. But what harm is there listening to another new genre, right? :)
Speaking of change, where it's the only permanent thing in the world (but I could actually name quite a lot, say death and birth), I see myself going through some. It's pretty amazing to know that I'm a lot different from what I thought I would be like today from an awkward teenager's (because hey, we all went through that phase) point of view. Everyday is an opportunity to learn, to develop, and to grow. Everyday presents a reason to accept and refute, to ponder and then finally decide. :)
This year, before I turn another year older, I hope I can recall as much reasons as I could that I have also grown wiser and more substantial. I wish to acquire the qualities I see in my mother and all the beautiful people I am surrounded with.

1. Quality time = ME time
I used to dread going to places and events alone. I used to always reach out and look for company in the presence of family and friends. Used to being the key words. Today and the past few years, I appreciate and value my time alone, where I can gather my thoughts and bask in the tranquil state that only a peaceful mind can offer. Suddenly, the chaos and noise begin to blur and fade into the background. Simple things begin to matter most.

2. God, family, friends
When all these three are put together, they come out as the only perfect combination. I don't know about you but this fact is inarguable. :) Sometimes, human as we are, we tend to forget that fame, power, and glory are never going to be the answer. We find ourselves lost and blinded in all these and then next thing we know, we're buried so deep it's hard to find our way up. My dear friends, when we value our loved ones, who are our prized possession, we find significance and purpose in living. :)

3. Fitness and hobbies
I've heard myself say "Tonight, I'm going to devote two hours of my time jogging," or "I will exercise" a couple of times, but I hardly put them into action. I have not really walked my talk. So this year, seeing as I have a lot of time in my hands and my plate is practically empty, it's high time I actually tag this as a priority. I know my body will thank me later. :)

Until then, amigos.